Seek ye first the Kingdom.....preface

As I stated in the introduction, in answer to my concern for my financial situation I received this instruction to put first things first and use what I've got. Did I say that I hadn't thought of  my most valuable asset. My faith.
The speech I learned as a child was about how God brought the Hebrew children out of a place of bondage. a place where they were obligated to serve against their will. This is what debt feels like  to me. Bondage. Moses had spent 40 years in his father in law's camp, learning and growing in faith. He saw his Father in law practice his faith as king, priest and prophet of his family and servants. He gained experiences as he encountered God for himself. Then after obeying God to go back to Egypt and get his people, he found himself standing in front of a large body of water. This was a naturally impassable  place to be in.  The story begins to end by saying " when Moses got to that red sea, he gave up on the spot. but the Lord said to Moses, what's that in your hand, use what you've got" the rest of the story is that he swept his walking stick over the water, the sea parted and they walked across on dry land. the Egyptians tried to do the same and were drowned.
Now, what does this have to do with me and my situation? The other part of the instructions. Seek ye first the kingdom of God and all these things shall be added unto you". It was the word FIRST that caught my attention.  Had I not placed God first? Was I trying to do it by my self, thinking up stuff then asking God to bless it?  Was I out of proper order? Oh, I had a method to my madness but was not in the right order. First things were not first.
It's funny that as I tried to reorganize my life I was actually becoming more frustrated. I'm just coming back to my self after a few years of being in a coma with my eyes open.  See I practiced nursing for over thirty years. I was better at it then some, not all, some of my former managers would care to admit.
One day after having done all the leg work to begin. I was financially able, and ready to get a building to open my first assisted living facility for seniors.  I had two more patients to see before my appointment with the realtor.  I never made it.  A couple of poor decisions on the part of teenage girls, and disobedience on my part ended with our colliding. Now, one has to live with the consequences of her actions, one is dead and I am still recovering from both physical and emotional injuries.
As a psychiatric nurse I've encouraged my patients suffering with depression to journal. Something I've seldom done my self. I usually study and write what I discover. I love to learn and see how I can use it. When I began to do service I found that what I studied was not just for me but that there were many who needed this information I was hording. I encouraged getting some new experiences. Decided to take my own advise and do it. Not that I could say I felt like it or wanted to do anything. At least in public I was and still am less likely to cry for no apparent reason.
Now in case you think I've gone off the subject. Let me assure you I have not. This is just history of how I got here. As you may can tell even as I write I'm not fully recovered. I still hurt, I still fight depression and to add to all of that. I'm out of money. Yes, nosey I got a small settlement  form  my insurance company and that's a story that would make you depressed too. I spent it on daily living needs and the many hospitals, surgery centers, labs, x-ray centers, physical therapist and doctors I have been seeing over the last few years. Now that your curiosity has been dealt with. can I get on with my blog? Thank you.
Coming in to summer I'd made plans to attend an MMI (millionaire mind intensive, it is not a religious event). I'd been to a few before. I found that I received a different thought and a new curiosity  about money, my relationship with it  and the management of it after attending the first one.  I thought that if I could go and take someone with me who could receive it I could get back to where I was just before the accident when life was looking rather good. I was looking for what I could put my hands to do so that God would have something to bless. Well, because of my makeup, I got home excited and began to go to my scripture to make sure that I was in line with the word. And. Yes, it happened again. My pastors instructions were to have the people do a 1-90. Place God first by increasing our study time. doing self evaluation to see where God is in our lives. We are to recommit to seeking the kingdom of God first and his righteousness for 90 days. there is a call " can He count on me? Yes he can!" There is so much to it that I'll just have to refer you to check our church out on line for your self to get the audios. Heritage Christian Center Jacksonville, Florida.
I soon found my self reading my bibles starting in the gospels. I don't know how to just read. I have to ask questions. That is how I ended up here. So, questions. what is the kingdom of God, Where is it, how to I seek it, how will I recognize it, what does it take to become a citizen?  How do I seek righteousness, What does it look like, how do I know if I have it, what can I do with it? And, the question that only a few would ask out loud. What is the benefit to me for doing all this seeking once I find them?
I read the gospels then was about to read Acts when I was instructed to go back to Matthew. There I would ask those questions. What was Jesus saying?  Did he answer my questions already in his parables?  The answer is, yes. So for anyone who may actually decide to follow this blog you are going to be blown away at what you will  discover in this study to Seek Ye First The Kingdom.

Seek Ye first the kingdom... Vocabulary lI

Debt: sin,trespass;something owed, obligation (unable to pay off his debt); a state of owing; the common law action for the action for the recovery of money held to be due. liability, obligation, score
Mosaic law encourages lending but forbade the exaction of interest exception from foreigners. Usury  was strongly condemned. On sabbatical year all pecuniary obligations were cancelled. These regulations prevented the accumulation of debt.
Trespass:a moral or social violation of ethics unwarranted infringement, an unlawful act committed on real property a person or anothers rights. Offence, error, breach, lawbreaking.
Pecuniary: Consisting of a measure of money; more at fee. syn: dollars and cents, fiscal, pocket, monetary, financial.
Fee, a fixed charge, a sum paid or charged for a service, a legal possession
Judge: to form an opinion about through careful weighing of evidence and testing of premises; to try; to determine or pronounced after inquiring and deliberation. Govern; Rule. to form an estimate of value esp to form a negative opinion about.; to hold an opinion, guess, think  as in (I judge she knew what she was doing) I think, I guess; Syn; arbitrate, decide, determine, referee, rule on, settle, umpire.
Judge: used of Hebrew tribal leaders: to govern, to exercise continuous sovereign authority over, esp to control and  direct the making and administration of policy in; to rule with out sovereign power and usually with out having authority, to determine basic policy (Archaic) -manipulate, to control direct or strongly influence the actions and conduct of. to hold in check, restrain, to require. to have decisive influences or control to exercise authority. Syn. Boss, captain, command, control, preside over, rule (archaic- sway)